Love and Fear

Posted by on Jun 30, 2012 in Journal | 1 comment Fear is something that I struggle with on a daily basis.  There are days when every moment, every thought, every decision and every word is carefully filtered through my fear.  It is exhausting moving through life with fear as your primary motivator.  It is exhausting wondering what people might think of you when you speak.  It is exhausting wondering whether or not your...
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Deep Hospitality

Posted by on Jun 24, 2012 in Journal | 2 comments I am truly not a kind person.  I am so quick to judge and my temper is like dynamite.  One spark and… BAMMM!… there goes my grace.  I know that makes me sound like I’m being too hard on myself but when I look at how I want others to view my heart I cringe just a little bit.  The following words are not words of self-condemnation but rather, they are words that...
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Feed Your Dreams, Starve Your Worries

Posted by on Jun 18, 2012 in Journal | 0 comments Six months ago I attended my first life coaching session.  I remember the day vividly.  It was a normal winter day; dull and dreary.  The sky was a dark steel grey and the wind was biting.  I had the day off from work, Happy Fridays we call them – but I was anything but happy.  I remember feeling so angry and restless.  Bitterness was snaking through  my heart...
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Friendship without Fear

Posted by on Jun 11, 2012 in Journal | 2 comments I heard this question asked recently.   “Do you maintain deep affections without the fear of abandonment?”  The question caught me completely off guard and I stumbled a bit as I attempted to conjure up an answer.   My first reaction was to slough it off, of course I don’t fear abandonment.  I was afraid of touching that word and what it meant, afraid that the...
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Awakening

Posted by on Jun 6, 2012 in Journal | 0 comments There has been an awakening in my life.  A light and filtered moment of peace for my soul.  A place where I can just – BE. No pretences, no disguises and no lies.  A place that allows me to live in freedom – not that of my own choosing, but that of God’s.  I start with exploring freedom because it has been this word that has come to mean the most  me over the past...
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